Hey, look,
I know that sometimes we just don't get along, but I decided that we needed to talk. Or rather, you needed to listen.
When did you stop loving me unconditionally?
I mean, when we were little you never thought about me in negative ways, we ran together, we played together, we learned together. We did everything together.
But these days it feels like you don't appreciate me.
You never think I'm thin enough, you don't like the wrinkles that are starting to show on my face, the cellulite that is beginning to occur on my legs, and the size of my hips well, you think they're too big.
You HATE my belly, and that hurts me.
You see I don't ever see you the way that you do. I understand that we have struggled together to just exist. That we've been sick most of our life, with diabetes, and kidney disease, that we could never just be healthy, that it's always been work.
But we always did it together. You and I, we faced everything together and experienced it together, from the first scrape on the knee to the last infection that we had from the meds we take.
When did you start thinking that we were no longer the same person and start thinking that you could do better or be better than me?
You see I'm the only body you've got, and to your credit the majority of the time you are so ready to take care of me, you feed me well, you exercise, you get enough sleep, and you do what is best for me. But you've got to remember that what you think, well, it MATTERS.
If you are looking at me with disdain and judgment, if you are bitter about our illnesses and full of sorrow and stress....well sister, that hurts me too. If you can't accept me as I am, then how do we continue on?
You need to realize what a gift I am, that not only do I house the soul that you have, but I help you to express what you feel, how you see yourself, that amazing, joyful, beautiful person that you are resides in me.
Neither of us knows why I'm the body that was chosen for you, or why you had to have a sick body but none of that matters now, because it's been 42 years and I don't see us ending our partnership any time soon.
So just a heads up, I love you. Yes, I, your body, love you and I know that you are more than capable of loving me. I've heard the way that you encourage others to feel beautiful and special. I've seen you hug them with compassion and courage when you are feeling badly yourself. I know that you push on even when it's hard.
So I wanted to tell you, keep doing that! But don't shake it off when your husband tells you how beautiful we are. Or ignore it when your friends admire that we are in great shape. I encourage you to remember that not only are we in this together but we set an example of how amazing our life can be regardless of what gets thrown at us.
We have a choice to see our self as beautiful, you seemed to have forgotten, so I just wanted to remind you. We are beautiful inside and out, please don't forget it.
Love,
Your body
